Thursday, January 22, 2015

Better Versus Bitter

I was wrong. I thought it all changed. I believed in change. I believed in you and me. What I didn't expect was that one of us would turn out to be a coward. I did not expect that one of us would be so willing to let yesterday be the last day. The last day that we would see one another. I did not see that coming. I had faith. I thought the best of both of us. 

Life has a funny way of showing us what we deserve. Regardless of how much one hopes and believes, sometimes something bigger in our lives has a plan much greater for our future. Meaning individually we can continue to say yes every single day and night. That does not mean the answer will be yes. The answer is likely turning out to be a whopping no. That is okay. 

I said once before that not everyone is meant for everyone else. If I do not choose to be with someone, then it is likely that I do not believe that person is meant for me. It works both ways. I cannot blame someone if it turns out that I am not their cup of tea. That may hurt us, but it does happen. Maybe our heart hurts for a day, a week, or whatever specialized time the heart and brain has set aside for this special event. Then we move on. Life has changed a little, but honestly, it can change us into a better person. Or it can change us into a bitter person. I will always work to become the former. 

On the other hand, being a coward is entirely different. Afraid to take the leap, afraid to make a change, afraid to do what is completely foreign. It can be scary. It is far easier to do what is known. I know. Either way, I do know that it is difficult. It truly is hard. I also know that one of us is a coward. I know that one of us was too afraid and is willing to let it all go. Yesterday was the last day.