Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Day 10

Day 10 - Something you're afraid of.

There are several things that I am afraid of. There are major things, such as anything happening to my son, family, and friends. Those are my major fears. Aside from those things, I am afraid of complacency. When I started putting forth the effort in myself and my self-growth I am aware that things in my life and surrounding my life are getting better. In the back of my mind, I am scared that I may get to a point where I am happy with the progress that I have made and believing that maybe it is good enough. It worries me that I could at some point settle to have a life that is good enough (because it is better than it was) and not pushing forward to achieve greatness. I do continue to come to this point every so often. I look at the progress that I have made and I am happy to be where I am. I know that it gets even better. I do continue to put the effort in and let me tell you, nothing is a fix-all overnight. It just doesn't work that way. At times I fall back into old TJ patterns, but I am usually quick to catch myself. If I don't catch it, someone else usually does (Thank you, Holly!). I am still pushing forward right now and am not settling for good enough. I am just afraid that it could happen.

I am afraid of not graduating from UC. Sure, I attend full-time, I pass my classes, and I keep up with scheduling and coursework. I am just up against a deadline. With this deadline hovering over me, it is hard for me to not have the idea of not graduating weighing on my mind.

There it is, some of the things that I am afraid of.

1 comment:

  1. I love you! You are doing an amazing job tackling those fears of complacency head on...and as for 'catching it'... it is a two way street! You catch me right before I break my face ALL THE TIME :)